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(1 have spoken | Speak to me) [22 Aug 2004|04:12pm] >> That last post was a total venting session. I didnt really mean any of that stuff I just had one bad day at work. And i thought it would be funny to write something like that. Not much of it is true tho most of the costumers aren't annoying at all. I actually really love that job. Ask anyone, i'm really happy with it. Yesterday was my last day tho :-(. They didnt schedule me for my last wk before i go to school. Its sad cause I realy enjoyed working there. >> Today is my last Sunday in East Brunswick before i go to school. its wierd, im really still in shock. This summer went by fast but i think i did plenty of stuff to enjoy it. >> How will i change by attended school at the university of delaware? I know i wont be the same person after living in new surrondings and away from my family and friends i knew my whole life. When i come back to this journal a yr from now what about me will have changed?

(Speak to me) NOTICE [20 Aug 2004|12:36am] Dear Costumers of ShopRite Spotswood: 1) When going up and down the front end looking confused, if I make eye contact with you, look at my face... im probally giving you a dirty look.. the means DONT come to my line. 2) When unloading your cart there is absolutly no need to put any effort into the order and organization of your items. I'm just going to mess it up in five second anyway when I scan everything. 3) Hurry your ass up and start bagging. I dont know what is going through your head that makes you think i would do it. 4) If I bag your shit you better be really freakin happy. And by happy i mean u better thank me. And dont EVER EVER question the way i bagged your items. Dont look through the bag, rearrange your items or complain. Im doing u a fucken favor. I dont have to do this. 5) Is it really such a difficult task to put the all the bags i just made for you into your cart? Its about the only thing you have to do yourself. It really doesnt need to take more then 10 seconds. 6) If the credit card machine isnt working.. dont blame me. In absolutly not strech of the imagination do i have anything to do with if it works or not. So stop giving me attitude about it. And if you have to start over.. deal with it. Itll probally take a tenth of the time it took u to load ur fucken bags into your cart. 7) Speakin of that part where u have to swip your card through the machine. Is it really that hard? I mean it shouldnt take u that hard to figure out what to do since the screen tells u exactly how. 8) When im giving you your change and ur reciept dont look at my name tag and say my name. Its really not a friendly thing to do. Its more creppy then anything else. Cause if you werent nice to me during the whpole grueling process.. its no use to try and start now. HAVE A NICE DAY Love Your Favorite Cashier, Chrissy S. #204

(Speak to me) important note to self [25 Jul 2004|12:09am] never ever ever ever allow someone to video tape partys where drinking is involved. bad idea. you will regret it.

(Speak to me) [17 May 2004|10:33pm] Tommorrow is my last duel meet. As much torture and pain track may have seemed like throughout the years, i was never got bored of it. I know im going to cry tomorrow, when i the last time in my entire life i will ever be in a situation like high school varsity track agian.

(Speak to me) [02 May 2004|11:59pm] If I could start ths wkd over I would: - Slept at home at least one night - Not waited untill 1230 to do my homework - Not slept from the 1-7 on Sunday - Notice my parking brake before driving the whole way home - Anticipate pukage- keep a garbage can near the culprit - Give my boyfriend more attention so he would feel loved Things i did right this wkd: - Studied for my Ap test from 11-2 on saturday - Went to my grandma's for dinner on Saturday - Went to gregs for dinner on Friday - Acutally woke up for my soccer game on Sunday morning at 9 - Practice satuday at 230.. got a good workout in Things to do: - Find a prom dress - Get a job - Get sleep - Act responsible and stop making up excuses

(Speak to me) LET THIS BE ON THE RECORD [05 Mar 2004|11:23pm] East Brunswick High School is offically the most rediculous, pathetic, lame excuse for a educational facility that i can even begin to fathom. East Brunswick High Jail would be an more appropriate name. 1 absolutly no control over the falculty and how they act toward students -this includes but is not limited to: teachers with a god complex, lieing guidence counslers, psycho aids, a corrupted athletic department 2 power trip administrators out to punish everyone so apperently if you cut you get a sat deten the punishment is equivilent if you go to get somehting from you car up-only stairs? down-only stairs? 3 to suehappy to provide any slight implication of student freedom senior privlieages? (17 and 18 yrs olds should be treated like adults) overly strict attendence policy (attendence officers- parole officers?) guarented interegation if you step outside the classroom(WHERES YOUR PASS) the best part is: there isn't a thing we can do about it but count the days till graduation and swear to never let our kids be subjected to the torture of this school system

(Speak to me) Its been a summer [01 Sep 2003|08:27pm] [ music | NFG- Hit or Miss ] Best way to end the summer: NFG concert Best reason to stand for 8 hours straight: NFG concert Only reason to go to shitty convention center asbury park: NFG concert Only reason I wouldnt mind a possible concussion and an extremely f-ed up neck/back: NFG concert ___

(Speak to me) Kiddies [17 Aug 2003|12:44am] Tonight me and Megan babysat four kids. Three in diapers. One who spits up constantly, one who screams bloodymurder non stop no matter what what do, another who wants her mommy. The 7 yr old helped us out a bit, but is kinda snobby. One stopped crying for a second, the other started. We ordered pizza at 6. It came at 7. We got a bite in here and there but never acutally ate a slice till about 10. Tonight it was a joint desicion between me and megan. NEVER, EVER, HAVING KIDS. on another note, its been a summer. and i need a job.

(Speak to me) Missin Him [05 Aug 2003|11:10pm] The best thing about that weekend was being about to hang out that entire time, non stop. We didnt have to call, plan, drive and having limited time to hang out. It was everysecond. It was living together. Now all i can think about is how i wish i could live with him forever. And how i dont want to lose him when i go to college. Oh i love that boy sooo much.

(Speak to me) Vacation [04 Aug 2003|01:04am] Last full week of July I went on vacation with my whole big family. It was alot of fun. The best thing about vacation is leaving everything else behind. Completely forgeting and not caring about everything thats at home. Its cool to come back and be like woah i didnt even think about this house once the entire time i was there. I didnt even think of the computer. A true vacation is really when u dont miss things. I like leaving my normal routine behind. This wkd, I just got back from going with Gregory to his dads house. It was very nice not missing my family. It was alot of fun spending a whole wkd with my baby. Hot tubs, drinking, sleeping hehe, ping pong, pinball, volleyball, swming, meeting people- lotsa great fun. Its funny getting trouble too. His house is the coolest and his dad is really chill. I deffinatly could spend the rest of my life with that boy. Theres no doubt in my mind of that. So now im back and im here for a while before we go to our sumemr hose in massachucutes. That should be another nice get away. Well now home to my nice warm bed. =

(Speak to me) [27 Jun 2003|11:53pm] I just wrote this really long entry in my private diary thing about gregory and how much he means to me. Debating whether to show him it. I know he'll appreciate it. I guess the whole aspect of me writing a 'private entry' is whats stoping me. I want to keep my self control and keep to myself but i cant manage to do that for some reason. I lack self control. In many areas. Its scary. I noticed this today when i was talking to my 10 yr old sister. I respected her for this quality she had, and wish i had it. she was telling me how she wanted to say stuff to people, but she didnt. I was baffled and really respected her for such a concept. I sometimes wish that I am not what I turned out to be.

(Speak to me) A rant [01 May 2003|08:35pm] You know what really pisses me off? Thoose people who have ADD or some psychological bullshit excuse for a 'learning disability' and get extra time on their SATs. And have the nerve to brag to me about thier 800 in math and 1420 total. Now the SAT is a test thats all about time. Its a time test. Sure if i had the exessive time to check over every math question i'd probally get nearly everyone right also. Even 5 extra minutes would do that for me. But these 'classified kids' get as much extra time as they want. Everyones so quick to name people with disabilities- its total bull crap. The best part about it is that colleges dont know that they get the extra time on the test. Why doesnt someone classify me with a learning disorder because i get sidetracked. The reason i run outta time is cause i get to a question and i wont leave it till i get the answer. So come on- dub me with some bull shit learning disability so i too can get in the 1400s. Now dont get me wrong the kids who are in resource room and have different tests during actuall classes and extra time,then yes i tottal understand the extra time SAT. But people who just pull out thier 504 for thier advantage in the SAT.... gets me soo angry. Which brings me to thoose bastards who carry around purses and one notebook the whole day b.c they have a 504 for thier 'back problems' and get extra textbooks in the class. Fucking whimps. I could really go onn allday. Political correctness pisses me off soo bad. UGGG okay thats my rant for today. im actually in the good mood right now, but i just remmber about a converstaion i had with someone earlier that reminded me about my anger towards this issue. On a brighter note. i've been DIEING to break 2:40 in the 800 and all i thought about all day was doing it. and i did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yea. not only that- but by ALOT. i got 2:37. i was dieing for hte 2:39. 2:37 shit i still cant believe it. :-). I just got home at 8 because i went straight to soccer from the meet. Ill go do nothing now. oh yea that HW thing. LATER

(Speak to me) SUPERMAN: THE ULTIMATE FLIGHT [18 Apr 2003|10:32am] yesterday we me and laura went to sixflags in the 30 degree weather. it was fun though, cause it was completely, completely EMPTYYY. So we get thier at like 3 30 and we go straight to superman. its opening day and i am sooo siked to go on that ride. We wouldnt of come in the freezing cold for any other reason. WE get on line and the line doesnt move for like 10 minutes. They come on the loud speaker and thier like " we are having minor difficultys, we are not sure how long this will take, go visit other rides." We're like no way we are moving cause as soon as we do its gunna work. so we stand thier. Like two minutes later they come back on "Guests on line, we are having minor technicall difficultes, we are not sure how long this will take, We RECOMENED that you go visit other rides" So we're like we're deffinatly not moving now. At the station thier is a car like stuck right before it and thier like emergency releasing the people from it. Next, "GUESTS PLESE LEAVE THE LINE. YOU MUST LEAVE THE LINE" lol... so we're walking through and at one point when the stations outta view we hear like a metal clanking and pll scream and the same time. We're like yikes we are deffinatly getting outta hear. So blah blah we go on with our day freaking FREEZING. The place is completely empty, every single ride minus nitro you can stay on as many times as you want. anyways... WE're like ..alright we really gotta go on superman. So we make our way over thiere and we see like onto of the chain lift the people are stuck agian. haha they were like taking them down allll the way from the top. WE're liek shit we are not going on that even if they do open it up lol. Its funny thoough cause yesterday was like the big opening day and they like closed it down after 6 oclock. Everywhere you look thiers a sign for SUPERMAN: THE ULTIMATE FLIGHT. Me and laura renamed it SUPERMAN: THE ULTIMATE FLGHT OF DEATH. WE'll see how long it is till we go back that ride.

(Speak to me) track= good times and other random thoughts [10 Apr 2003|07:09pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | if your not the one.. in my head SONG SUCKS ASS ] Last saturday was the track coach GMC invitational relays and we rocked. I ran 3 varsity races, which i can not beleive i managed. We got two medals. One of them being FIRST PLACCCE. Yes thats right, we WON the DM. Tishio ran an excellent 1200, starting us in first place. A freshman, Christine ran a really freakin fast 400 which keept our lead. Then I got the batton and ran a 2:44 800. Its not my best time, but its good considered I ran a mile in the 4x1600 only an hour before. Then I gave it to roxanne who ran a 6 10 mile, keeping us in first. Roxanne finisshed and we all came running to her hugging her and we told her the grl ahead of her who was like a minute ahead was from a differnt divison so they dont count for us and we WON. The look on her face was soo happy and it was just such a great moment. So we went up and got our GOLD metal. We added this to our neck that allready held a SILVER metal for the 4 by 1600. But the glory didnt end thier. Appently you get alot of credit for winning a race. Our names where in Sunday star ledger AND home news. And just today in the Sentinal we were in a paragraph. it said we finsihed WELL AHEAD of the 2nd place. WE KICKED MAJOR ASS. ANNNNND yesterday when i got home i had a little memo in the mail from MR MURPHY saying congrats for winning the DM. He initailed it. Man, so freakin exciting. SO we have another relay on saturday. Its realy hardcore tho im scared- thiers alot of pressure now. Today we had a rediculously hard workout and i was having alot of trouble doing it. I was up last night till 1 30 finishing my research paper. I better get a 100 on it. I have 14 differnt sources cited and liek absolutly no repition. I handed it in earlier than everyone else to. She said she'll grade nicer the earlier you hand in. It was a mistake tho not to get enough sleep. That workout was such a freaken struggle. We did 12 400s with the only recovery in between is a JOG of 100 meters. He wanted me to do it in 94 i think.. i did em all in like 92-98. when i got the 98s hes liek COME ON too slow. god i hate that. I couldnt believe we did that workout. thats the hardest workout i ever did. i never even fathomd something that hard. I mighta made up that word. PLus i was in the worst condtiction possible. so it was bad, real bad. Anyway gregs not going to the meet on satruday cause thier only taking 2 shot puters... which means hes going to six flags w/o me :( :( :( .maybe the meet will be rained out and cancled but i doubt it. oh well. we're gunna go the first day of spring break which is the first day that superman opens i CANT FREAKIN WAIT. its like passover so no jewish ppl are gunna be there whihc means less crowdedness. Im not even thinking of spring brreak at all.. its nottihng to be exctied about since its not even a freakin solid week. Ms Wiess said not to go to school thoose other two days, so maybe i wont. haha. its 4th quarter and gregs back in lunch its soo freakin great. im soo happy i love that boy soooo much. i told him that we might have to get married lol. he said im the boss lol. Whenever we have fights (like this monday) things get like 100 times better. Thoughts of the week 1)The best feeling is... a) finishing you history H research paper b)being in love c)sleeping 2)Its funny when... a)my bagereed toes bleed purfusly b)teachers make comments to me n greg when we stand in the little hall creavases c) my 9 yr old cousin hears that i have a boyfriend and says hes gunna beat him up cause he wanted to marry me lol. Then greg comes to the door and my cousin takes one look at him and runs away . his quote " i thought he was gunna be small, but hes biggg!" lol 3)I love... a) getting a 95 on a chem test i didnt pay attn or study for b) saturday nights c)playing wiht my cousins cause thier crazy 4)I hate... a) 92% of our in our school-thier bastards b)people who think thier better than other people c)when someone is a total asshole to you and then the nxt day when hes walking by himself in the hall and he pases you he trys to give u a hug as if we are friends 5)its fun... a) playing soccer, i love my team b) when greg picks me up and spins me around c) to play fight with greg 6)im excited for... a) the summer b)six flags c) badmitton in gym and my dad setting up our net 7)I dont understand... a)The thing with ppl being silent cause their gay . I guess i just dont understand any thing hainvg to do with gay people b) why people act the way they do (throwing spitballs) c) how people can be so rude (to teachers esp ((english)), to others ((math))) 8) Its painful ... a) to wake up b) to do a workout c) to do pushups 9) It sucks when... a) your friends are mad at you cause u got annoyed with them b) you fight with ur parents c)you cant make summer plans cause you dont know about a job situation 10) I like a) days with no homework b) finishing workouts c) nice weather

(Speak to me) [24 Mar 2003|08:39pm] >>On the same line as that how i react to certain things point from the last entry, i found it interesting how upset i got over a friend doing something that i feel wasnt a good desicion. Greg didnt understand why i got so upset over it. I guess it was a matter of that i really believed in the persons ability and was then let down completely. For the third time. I guess its just depressing when you really finally lose all hope in a person. Ah i dunno if thats it, but its something along thoose lines. >>Sometimes a big scary arguement can end in things being better then they ever were. Its really good to get out your feelings about things, because afterwards its really worth it. >>Im so easyily convinced by someones words, its rediclous. Extremely gulible would be the phrase for that wouldnt it. On a final note. I am so in love. and its amazing.

(Speak to me) [18 Mar 2003|07:44pm] Life is wierd sometimes. Wierd in the way things fall into place. The events that happen, and how you react to them. How you react to them... that shows .... how you change. I just stoped and thought about how i reacted to the events that happened to me the last few days, and how i would probaly respond to them completely differently at other times in my life. I am always changing. Just reading entrys from a few months ago. The way I write my entrys is basically how my train of thought is. And old entrys deffinatly do not show how my train of thought now. I dunno what im even rambling about anyore... As of now my current pet pevve is my mom asking me to do stuff. For some reason now a days it just really bothers me. Im just a selfish spoiled brat i soppose, or maybe she really is asking alot of me. I just want to be left alone. Im just lazy basically. My main goal in life right now is to do as little as possible. School work wise i dont do anything. Its funny when i get good grades tho. And home all i do is relax. Okay im really going no where with this. IM just procrastinating my outline. haha. on a last note... things with me and greg are good. All we do is tease each other its really immature and sad. But i mean what do u expect. I love him. yea dont know where im going with this either. I seem to lack a point. Back to that outline. I've had a really f-ed up cough for like 4 wks now. Since the snow days. it keeps going into something differnt. Now its a cough that i sneeze everytime i cough and it really really hurts my back. I went to the doctor last wk he didnt seem to care. but i mean a 4 wk cough... isnt that abnormal? he gave me an inhallar. greg wants me to go back to the doctor he thinks i have bronchitis .. he seems to know alot about that stuff. I probally should but i dont want to bother my mom to take me. Shes sooo busy with stuuf. the three of us have sooo much stuff that we do and she has no time to her self. all she does take us places. The one time i went to hte doctor i had to go to the eye doctor too cause i have this major cornal obstruction that hurt reallly really bad and i just felt bad she had to take me. i felt really bad. so ill just survive wiht this cough. Im fine, i mean if i wasnt i probally wouldnt be able to track. speaking of track. we got a new coach and its really challenging now. i like it alot. I feel im gunnag get alot better. okay i managed to put of my outline another half hour . GOOD BYE

(Speak to me) [18 Feb 2003|05:02pm] whats with ppl? i mean really shut up.. everyones like im bored of snow days! jeez wats that matter with you! im soo enjoying this. maybe its cause im such a child... ill never ever get tired of playing in the snow with my sisters and cousins. taking a piece of plastc and sliding down a hill never gets old and nither does constructing things with the snow thats now very co-operative. keep the snow days coming!

(Speak to me) [26 Jan 2003|09:48pm] you really notice your ups and downs when u read journal entrys. yikes. didnt waste to much time studing for midterms the past wk and of the 3 i had (computers, history, chem) ... i didnt do bad at all in fact i got a 92 on computers.. she allready told me my grade... probally gunna have to study for math but thats all. biggest delimah... what classes should I take next yr??? well later maybe ill have a track meet thursday

(Speak to me) [20 Jan 2003|07:56pm] [ mood | pessimistic ] [ music | morning view ] Ever feel like your not good enough? Sometimes I just look bad and regret everything I say, everything i do. And i just feel horrible. Just look at who are you one in a while. really stop, think, and look. Do you like what you see? I hate it. I hate who i am. I hate the things i say and how I treat certain people I care about. I hate how i act the wrong way all the time. What i hate the worst is that i dont even notice how I am untill i really stop and look. And even when im aware i cant seem to change. If i knew someone who was like the way i noticed i am, i'd probally hate thier guts. this is really upsetting... i wish i could change but i know its so hard. I almost want to never tlak to the ppl i care about because i feel bad they have to deal with me. so depressing. this isnt something new its just something i always aviod. if i dont shape up, i dont know what im going to do. i feel this cause no matter how hard i try im never good enough. wether it be school, sports or relationships. no matter how much time i put in how much thought i put in how much work its never ever enough. i dont know what to do with myself

(Speak to me) [16 Jan 2003|05:21pm] third meet in a row canceled. kinda funny. very funny. my goal this week was not to finish all the work i had but not to have a nervous breakdown. kinda failed. i had my little nervous breakdown yeaterday night. that was funny too. but i did finish all my work. i just need to memorize my essays. im pretty good at that. plus i have soccer tonight which im looking forward to very much. Im just very tired. I really need sleep. But its thursday and tomorrows friday and its a 3 day wkd, and everythings just good. i love greg so much. things are good. he let me wear his flece today it was soo cuttte hehe. at least at the end of this long grueling wk i have something to look forward to... spending the wkd with him :-) well back to work i go... LAY DER DEYS

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